It’s time to say goodbye…..

Time definitely flies when you’re having. It’s been three years since I started Fill That Space, my art business. Yet, it only feels like yesterday.

So much has changed in that time. I’ve learnt a lot. And I mean a massive amount. I’ve met some really amazing and inspiring people. But as with life, the path is not a straight one. There have been ups and downs. Bumps that I’ve had to overcome. Diversions that I’ve needed to take.

And so, here is my latest diversion. It’s a big one.

Just a few months ago I closed Fill That Space. The business that I was inspired to start after leaving Rolls-Royce, instead of finding another company to work for. I’d been thinking about closing the business for a while but I wasn’t quite ready to let it go. Until now.

Is this a failure?

Some people may see that as a failure. Not me. Starting Fill That Space has given me so much. It was my first taster of running my own business. Something that I’d always wanted but just didn’t know what. And it’s confirmed that it’s something that I want to continue doing.

It’s allowed me entry into a totally new world. To meet and mix with some fascinating individuals. To really test my capabilities. To step into the light and to take full responsibility for what happens instead of being shielded by the comfort of a large organisation.

Oh my goodness, it can be scary. But at the same time, it can be really exciting. I was asked recently whether I regret my decision to leave Rolls-Royce and without hesitation I said no. Why? Because I know, without any doubt, that I’m in the right place right now.

I’ve left behind that feeling of dread when I wake up. Thinking ‘is this it?’

Sure, the future is less certain. But that’s all part of the package. That’s what I sign up for.

Start of a new chapter

So now you might be thinking, ‘that’s great Maria. But what are you doing now?’

I’m so glad you asked.

What became glaringly obvious, and what I’ve known since the beginning, is that I’m not alone in feeling stuck and wanting more from life. I’m not alone in feeling like there must be more to this routine of the ‘mummy juggle’ that I’ve got locked into.